School Life

I used to say that my school life wasn’t good

I’ve no memorable moments that made me want to replay that again

Instead, I wanted to start all over again

‘As if …’ which meant impossible and never be happened

Then, Allah guided me to be a teacher

This silent, clumsy, shy, talentless girl is a teacher

I just remember the first time teaching kids

Lotsa anxieties that time
still didn’t know anything but wanted to try

but, I got the feeling

The feeling of students enjoying their school life

Despite playing different role, I was really happy

That time I knew, perhaps Allah wanted me to feel the great things of school life that I skipped in the past

Although I still don’t know anything

Just brave myself to share something

By the time I realize that teaching is a process of learning

Never ending learning

In that process, I ever wanted to be perfect, to be admired

But now I realize, being loved is much better than being amazed

Once I said to my students that every hard time shall pass

They will be graduated someday

and for myself?

I also said that everything shall pass

But, there never be a graduation

I really can’t see the end of this journey

Yet, what I have to do now is keep going

All in all, I’m happy being here

In a place that full of moments that I ever missed in my past